One Last Time

Psssst......over here

I need to tell you something

can you come a little closer?

Please.....

I just need to feel you close 

and I don't want anybody else to hear.

Closer.....

so, close I can reach out and grab your hand

and then I will whisper to you....

I love you

That's all

I know you don't love me

and I know I have nothing to offer

but I just wanted you close enough

to tell you

and to feel you one last time.

Something is Missing

I woke this morning, as I do every morning knowing that a piece of me is missing. 

I slowly stretched, wriggling my fingers and toes taking careful inventory. 

I lost my heart so quickly and without warning, I can't be certain that I may lose more of myself. 

Of course, can I consider it lost when I know where it is?

I gave it to you, the first time we talked, without reservation.

How could I not, as I knew that you were the one I had hoped and prayed for all along. 

The one that I thought perhaps did not exist or was just too far from me for discovery.

But without you here, I feel the void in my chest and throughout my being.

I woke consumed with my thoughts of you and began my day in robotic fashion.

Merely existing until I can look into your eyes and speak the words, "I love you."

Seconds drag by, transforming into minutes and minutes into hours.

So slowly the time passes in my bath of loneliness.

Throughout the day you visit me many, many times.

You may not be aware of the haunting that is you.

I run to my phone each times it rings, hopeful.

Answering each time only to be met with disappointment.

I scan my email, deleting message after message because they are not from you.

I check my mail wishing to see your pen has graced stationary with my name.

Sometimes I whisper your name hoping that wherever you are, you hear it.

Hoping that it resonates within you and moves you to whisper in return.

Other times I whisper silent prayers for your safety, peace, joy and strength.

My day ends with a feeling of despondency as the need for you goes again unfulfilled.

I fall into bed, staring at the the bed post in the shadows wishing that it was you standing near my bed.

Tossing and turning, sleep evades me once again.

Those are my days without my heart, one rolling into the next.

One searing through me the next cutting like a knife.

It is as if the hollow that once held my heart increases in size as time creeps by.

It is an open wound begging to be dressed.

The only healing balm , your presence and your touch.

Darling, hurry to me - I need my breath to return so I may start living again.

My Love For You

My love for you is able to encompass all that you are

We are complex creatures

bringing with us multiple facets of our makeup

I see all sides of you

And love them without question or doubt

You are my sun and my moon

I see you in everything I do

everywhere I go

I feel you beside me throughout each day

Your words echo in my thoughts

My darling

My love will encompass all that you are

I need you to know

I need you to believe

I want to show you my love

I want to be your comfort, your support

your encouragement, your sounding board

your lover, your friend

I want to be the one to hold you when you hurt

the one to wipe your brow when you are sick

the one to listen to your hopes and dreams

as well as your fears and frustrations

My love encompasses all that you are

and I am here for you 

no matter how small or how great the need

and even

if you don't need me at all

I will be here

loving you

with a love deeper then the sea on which you sail.

Just A Kiss

“It’s just a kiss”

Just a kiss you say?

In a kiss belies your spirit.

In a mother’s kiss is the power to take away your pain.

A mother’s kiss has the power of a tranquilizer,

Soothing the cares of the world and 

Sending young souls off to dream 

Of super powers and fantastic voyages.

A mother’s kiss tells you

You are worthy of love

Giving you the confidence to face the world.

Stolen kisses of youth

Ignite feelings unbeknownst before

Feeling your body’s response as your lips meet

Trailing kisses that linger long after they occur

Burning into your flesh like a brand

Never to be forgotten

A kiss can make a good lover

A great lover

After all, a kiss is where it all begins

And a kiss is where it ends

A kiss can say hello, goodbye, I love you, 

I wish the best for you

I am beside you and even

I hate you

Just a kiss tells a story better then words

Words can lie

Words can deceive

But you know in a kiss

A brush of the lips that let you know

You didn’t measure up

And you know that is your last meeting

Even if unspoken

Hungry, passionate kisses that say

I want you

Light, tender kisses that tell you

The giver wants only the best and brightest for you

Then there are those kisses

Oh, those kisses

Those kisses that start slowly

Softly

Eyes gazing into you

A parting of the lips

Still gazing

Indelibly marking themselves on your mind

Those kisses that surpass the barrier

Of human flesh

Those kisses that intertwine souls

Those unmistakable kisses that say

I love you

Just a kiss?