So, I was thinking the other day that I felt like a greyhound on a track chasing the ever elusive rabbit. I thought to myself, "God, why can't you ever let me catch it?" Bemoaning what I want in my life and what I don't have. I have become the man in Haggai 1:6 "You planted a lot, but you harvested little. You eat, but you're never full. You drink, but you're still thirsty.?wine[ to drink but not enough to become drunk."> You wear clothing, but you never have enough to keep you warm. You spend money as fast as you earn it."
As I pined away at my not "catching the rabbit" God spoke to me and said, "if you catch the rabbit, you will find it was not real." Ahhh... the rabbit is mechanical, a deception. And even for the dog who wins the race, the winner's bounty is no real reward. He goes on to chase the fake rabbit the next weekend. These thoughts all lead me to question what it is that I am chasing. I was reminded of Ecclesiastes 2:11 "Yet when I surveyed all that my hands had done and what I had toiled to achieve, everything was meaningless, a chasing after the wind; nothing was gained under the sun."
What is it that I want in my life that I cannot seem to attain? Peace, love, financial security...I just want a reprieve from the pressure of my day to day life. But, I got off track... I started looking for these things instead of Him who provides all for my good. Seeking God first takes you off the track. Running the circle of life gets you nowhere. You will keep running until you die, never satisfied. Like it says in James 4:2 "You want something but don't get it. You kill and covet, but you cannot have what you want. You quarrel and fight. You do not have, because you do not ask God". We need fellowship with God, conversation, to make our requests known. The second part of the equation is found in Matthew 6:31-33"So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?'For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well." We ask, then we seek Him. Such a simple equation and yet so easy to lose sight.
I am getting off the track now. I want to chase something real.
